My novel and perspective on life and marriage

Y True happiness 

 What do people desire the most in their lives? Do people want religion, love, attention, technology, money, fame, intelligence, or peace, or human connections? We are social creatures who crave intimacy,it is human nature to preserve connections with many different individuals to learn how to reach our individual potential to become the best people we can be happy interesting diverse successful ,productive members of society .People who can help children find their own voices and empower themselves to make the world better place to live. Some relationships create deep connections, which allow people to build trust and mutual love that form bonds. These bonds can lead to many different types of important relationships such as friendship, family coworkers, Bond that promotes career advancement and happiness and peace and strength and respect and success when someone advocates for what they believe in. bond of mutual attraction and love that leads to marriages . People want to motivate others; they have a need to be wanted by others because humans are social creatures. Being in Egypt last summer, spending time with my family and friends has taught me that time is so precious and life is short and you have to enjoy the time together with your loved ones because you never know how much time you have left with them so make it clear how much you love and appreciate accepting them for who they are. In addition I have discovered that true happiness is when you have peace in your heart after they read the Quran and People love their own life and fully understand their circumstances knowing that no one can change their fate everything is written by Allah it is ok to get upset but I remember that you have a lot of people who love and many blessings my deen my family and my writing alhamdulillah I have learned that happiness is brought . Many people believe that happiness is connected to something or someone. For example, some people are only happy if they are successful in their careers and legacy they are leaving behind Hoverer some people are only happy with money fame traveling the world .I mean I would love to travel the the world and I love the idea of love and meeting my soulmate finding someone who understands me and falling in love but their are so much divorce. It is hu and we need to form relationships. Some relationships create deep connections, which allow people to build trust and mutual love that form bonds. These bonds can lead to many different types of important relationships such as friendship, family coworkers,a Bond that promotes career advancement and happiness and peace and strength and respect and success when someone advocates for what they believe in. bond of mutual attraction and love that leads to marriages . People want to motivate others; they have a need to be wanted by others because humans are social creatures. Being in Egypt with my family and friends has taught me that time is so precious and life is short and you have to enjoy the time together with your family and friends because you never know how much time you have left with them so make it clear how much you love and appreciate accepting them for who they are. In addition I have discovered that true happiness is when you have peace in your heart after they read the Quran and People love their own life and fully understand their circumstances knowing that no one can change their fate everything is written by Allah it is ok to get upset but I remember that you have a lot of people who love and many blessings my deen my family and my writing Alhamdulillah I have learned that happiness is brought . Many people believe that happiness is connected to something or someone. For example, some people are only happy if they are successful in their careers and legacy they are leaving behind Hoverer some people are only happy with money fame traveling the world .I mean I would love to travel the the world and I love the idea of love and meeting my soulmate finding someone who understands me and falling in love but there is so much divorce. It is human nature.My point is that falling in love is beautiful but you don't need a man to be a happy family. It is amazing but women are independent, caring and loving. You have success. I have recently got a new perspective on happiness. You can just be happy with what you have accomplished and what you want to achieve in life.sometime I think I am a failure because I have not met society's expectations of me and my friends are all in different places with masters degrees, husbands and careers. The truth is I am not a failure, I have accomplished my own path. Everyone is successful in their own way. I am a strong and independent caring social worker advocate and writer . Happiness is always about the truth and people who are spending time with not celebrating your talents and not comparing yourself to others until you get so hard on yourself and you don't realize how much you have accomplished as a person my blog my Quran because I have so long focusing on the things I don't have when the Truth is there is no specific time for anything I love reading Quran but everyone has their own path . There is no specific time to achieve your dreams, get a career, find your own voice and make a difference in the world. Maybe I will find a husband inshallah 

 I think people have a desire to fight for an important cause or stand up for what they believe is right, and make a difference in the world to help people. This is in order to find meaning in their lives to inspire people to leave legacies behind to inspire young people to come together to bring the most positive change that they want to see in this world. In addition, maybe people just want friends to feel as if they belong in this world. I believe that a meaningful purpose is essential to motivate individuals towards their goals. Therefore, people can use Islam as guidance to overcome fear loneliness and laziness by defeating negative emotions by allowing a positive attitude to be the driving force that determines how people live their lives to the fullest, so that they can focus on what they love in order to discover their full potential as the best people they can be. In addition, maybe people just want friends to feel as if they belong in this world. Therefore, do people just want others to like them for who they really are as individuals in their own way knowing that they are accepted in society? On the other hand, people can admire a person for standing up for what they believe in, in order to fight for justice, to make a difference and change the world. The truth is nobody knows what the answer is to what people desire the most out of life. Is it possible for people to desire too much out of life? As a result, the desires of the human heart are too irresistible to control. Although, the most important aspect to remember is how people use their hearts' desires to impact the world. Every person has a very unique personality with different interests, along with his or her own dreams and goals to achieve in life. As a result, it is impossible to tell what each person desires in this world. This is a mystery that has eluded mankind since the dawn of time. As a result, this makes some people’s minds wander deep inside their souls to seek the potential they have to make their talents blossom into something great that they can offer the world. This is in order to make a difference and help change the world for the better of humanity during their lifetime. The mystery of what mankind desires most out of their subconscious minds, hearts, and souls is the unsolved. This is why people fantasize. Fantasies make the world seem like a better place to live because the subconscious mind does not have any limitations. This leads people to dream of their desires that they want to make into a reality. Most people dream of a perfect world! Do you imagine a perfect world where all of your heart’s desires can come true?

     This is impossible, right? You would think a person would have to die and go to heaven to find out what happens after death? Well, you are wrong because all you have to do is dive into the perfect world of Ethiopia to find what your heart desires the instant you wish for it. Then here your opportunity just sink your mind into the world of Ethiopia to discover your heart’s desires and purpose in life through a magical love story between an ordinary girl named Crystal who becomes an immortal and Jake ,Crystal falls in love with her best friend Jake, who is a soul reaper hunter only to realize that Jake was always her true love. After being put under a spell this causes her to fall in love with an evil sorceress named Danny who created the soul reaper’s race.

               

 

 

Chapter 1

The transition of fate from ordinary life to my Destiny 

I will start from the beginning of my story . The day my life changed forever .I was happy until my dad died and I realized he was king. I was a princess of the crystal kingdom.Did you ever feel like you did not fit in your own family . As if the life you live is not supposed to be the way it is ? Or your parents are not really who they say they are? Everything changed when my father passed away. The world is always selfish, but I have become so strong I will change the world. I discovered that love is powerful. People who you thought you knew are selfish. Some friends are true. Other people are not true friends, they fizzle out of touch with you and I discovered that my friends are completely different individuals. People drift apart all the time . Normally society would say that people lose touch on a daily basis ,but what if the person you love most in the world, your own mother who raised you and was always there for you whenever you needed her was not actually own mother .but a friend and loyal guard hired by your biological mother Fatima Amelia Elgohary queen of the crystal kingdom.

Chapter 2. I think people have a desire to fight for an important cause or stand up for what they believe is right, and make a difference in the world to help people .This is in order to find meaning in their lives to inspire people to leave legacies behind to inspire young people to come together to bring the most positive change that they want to see in this world. In addition, maybe people just want friends to feel as if they belong in this world. I believe that a meaningful purpose is essential to motivate individuals towards their goals. Therefore, people can use Islam as guidance to overcome fear loneliness and laziness by defeating negative emotions by allowing a positive attitude to be the driving force that determines how people live their lives to the fullest, so that they can focus on what they love in order to discover their full potential as the best people they can be. In addition, maybe people just want friends to feel as if they belong in this world. Therefore, do people just want others to like them for who they really are as individuals in their own way knowing that they are accepted in society? On the other hand, people can admire a person for standing up for what they believe in, in order to fight for justice, to make a difference and change the world. 

     The truth is nobody knows what the answer is to what people desire the most out of life. Is it possible for people to desire too much out of life? As a result, the desires of the human heart are too irresistible to control. Although, the most important aspect to remember is how people use their hearts' desires to impact the world. Every person has a very unique personality with different interests, along with his or her own dreams and goals to achieve in life. As a result, it is impossible to tell what each person desires in this world. This is a mystery that has eluded mankind since the dawn of time. As a result, this makes some people’s minds wander deep inside their souls to seek the potential they have to make their talents blossom into something great that they can offer the world. This is in order to make a difference and help change the world for the better of humanity during their lifetime. The mystery of what mankind desires most out of their subconscious minds, hearts, and souls is the unsolved. This is why people fantasize. Fantasies make the world seem like a better place to live because the subconscious mind does not have any limitations. This leads people to dream of their desires that they want to make into a reality. Most people dream of a perfect world! Do you imagine a perfect world where all of your heart’s desires can come true?

     This is impossible, right? You would think a person would have to die and go to heaven to find out what happens after death? Well, you are wrong because all you have to do is dive into the perfect world of Ethiopia to find what your heart desires at the instant you wish for it. Then here your opportunity just sink your mind into the world of Ethiopia to discover your heart’s desires and purpose in life through a magical love story between an ordinary girl named Crystal who becomes an immortal and Jake. Crystal falls in love with her best friend Jake, who is a soul reaper hunter only to realize that Jake was always her true love. After being put under a spell this causes her to fall in love with an evil sorceress named Danny who created the soul reaper’s race.

               

 

 

Chapter 3

The transition of fate from ordinary life to my Destiny 

I will start from the beginning of my story . The day my life changed forever,I was happy until my dad died and I realized he was king. I was a princess of the crystal kingdom.Did you ever feel like you did not fit in your own family . As if the life you live is not supposed to be the way it is ? Or your parents are not really who they say they are? Everything changed when my father passed .away. The world is always selfish, but I have become so strong I will change the world. I discovered that love is powerful. People who you thought you knew are selfish. Some friends are true. Other people are not true friends, they fizzle out of touch with you and I discovered that my friends are completely different individuals. People drift apart all the time . Normally society would say that people lose touch on a daily basis ,but what if the person you love most in the world, your own mother who raised you and was always there for you whenever you needed her was not actually own mother .but a friend and loyal guard hired by your biological mother Fatima Amelia Elgohary queen of the crystal kingdom.

The world was safe and peaceful, pure and untouched by violence such as war, racism, diseases, world hunger, and the evil qualities of the human heart. The sky was blue with not a single speck of darkness, just light from the sun shined with hope as it rose above the horizon. There was a small quiet house on the Far West Coast of California, in Hollywood in front of the beach. Despite living in Hollywood, I live with my family, and my life is very ordinary. I go to school for acting, directing and writing. I have family and friends. The only thing I was missing was romantic love, but the only person who I have ever felt a connection with and developed feelings for is my best friend Jake who I have known since I was eleven. I have always been in love with him, but I was too afraid to tell him the truth until one day he left for the army when we found out about the soul reapers invasion.

 Ever since that day my life changed forever, I remember it as if it was yesterday. I was ten years old playing with my toys when it happened.? Little did I know the soul reapers were after me for my powers. Suddenly, I felt a chill down the back of my spine. I started shivering so I went to close the window. As I reached for the window sill, I looked out stunned to see a very dark, ominous, cloud descending over the town. Then suddenly, a fog came over me as if everyone was frozen, and an evil spirit's eyes were piercing through my soul as if he had control of me. I felt like I was a helpless girl in a good horror movie just waiting to be rescued by my knight in shining armor. Some heroine I turned out to be—granted I was only six years old. People say children are innocent, but what I know is that adults do not even realize that innocence of children gives people power, endurance, and inner strength. The fire of the fighting spirit that burns deep within your soul, the will to live life never give up without a fight no matter what happens in life. The fire was burning deep within me that you didn't even know I had until my life was in danger. It also gave me a new foundation to believe in myself and stand up to fight even though I was terrified, I wanted to run. If I did run Shadow, the soul reaper would kill my family and me.

 I had to stop him even if I was dreaming. I said, “Hey you, my name is Crystal. What do you want from me? Who are you? Leave my family alone.”

 He said, “I want to corrupt the pure light of your soul to turn you into my slave. “

 I am Shadow the “soul reaper.

 Are you going to come with me willingly or will I have to take you by force? You choose! ”

  Crystal said,” I choose to stay here! I will never let you take my soul! As long as there is breath in my body I will not let you hurt my family and friends!” He was coming fast. “Stay away from me. Leave me alone.” I screamed as he was about to touch me. “Go away!” I shielded my face with my hands. Then a light beamed from my hands and began to overflow through my body. Then suddenly I had an arrow of light aiming to shoot Shadow. I shot it at his body and perched his soul. The last words were “impossible how I could be defeated by an ordinary human girl”.

Chapter 2

The revelation of purpose:

    Ever since I have always wondered what my purpose in life was. I wonder whether I belong in this world. I believe that everything happens for a reason. Then, what was the reason for me spending all my summer watching Japanese anime, going on Facebook to talk to a friend in New Jersey who went to college today? I have not seen her in more than two years. In addition to writing this fantasy story, I know it has potential to become a bestseller one day. As a result, I am hoping my novel will be made into a movie, which will make me famous someday. This novel will be the way I help make a difference in people’s lives, instead of being a burden on everyone I have known throughout my life. Besides that, my summer has been the most boring summer of my life. I tried to apply to Nassau today. I could not focus on anything today because all I had on my mind was the nightmare. It is the same which I have been having over and over again for the last couple of months.

Chapter 4 – The birth of darkness:

It was a sunny morning in the town of uthiopia. Even though I had the same nightmare of a tall skinny man chasing me down a dark alley with a knife in his hand. Just then he grabbed me and put the knife in front of my neck. I was so scared, I could not breathe. I thought this was the end for me. Then I screamed “Stop!! Let me go!, Who you are?” 

 “I am a soul reaper. My name is Shadow. “ He said, “I will not stop until you are dead. Before you can fulfill your destiny as the chosen one. There were more of them coming, an army of soul reapers. There is nowhere to hide.” 

Shadow’s eyes were a deep ominous red. He had a strong, mysterious will that I could somehow feel his hypnotic hold on my body. It was so strong that he pulled me to him. I tried to run, but I could not move my body. It was as if he had control over my soul by seeking my deepest darkest fear of dying and losing the people I love the most Jake and my family. I was terrified beyond belief. I never imagined I would die like this . My heart was racing and I was losing all hope. My life was flashing before my eyes, images of my family and everything I held dear to my heart, flashed before my eyes like an old movie on a projector.  

Then suddenly, I saw a bright light shining through the alley. It blinded me for only a second, but was weakening Shadow as it intensified. When I got to my feet I saw this boy with green eyes, long blond hair, and curly hair. His smile was sweet, innocent, and protective as if he was happy to see me. I felt relieved with joy as if I knew what we had been an unbreakable bond I could not explain. I ran to meet him, but he disappeared as if he was never even there. Did I imagine this whole entire story? What did it mean? Who was he? Am I the chosen one destined to save the world? Why me of all the people in this world? The shock must have awakened me. The dream seemed so real like I was actually there. It is funny how a dream is a message of your subconscious mind trying to reveal something even you are unaware of.

After that dream, the last thing I wanted was to go to school and listen to boring lectures from my teachers about how to have a productive, but fun summer .Be practical and get a job. You need to be active. Play sports keep fit .Perform as many useful activities to keep you busy and help people getting involved in community organizations. Do not just wallow around in your own self-pity, watching television all day, or go on Facebook. You need to make the best of your young lives, while they last by going to the beach with your family, and hanging out with friends. You can also start writing in a journal, to record your feelings about the days so you are able to express yourself and make memories of a lifetime.

 Instead, I got out of bed feeling shocked and excited from the dream I had. I went to open the window to let the warm orange rays of the bright sun in, reflecting a new vision of hope. The touch of the sun had a warm sweet feel on my skin. It made me forget all about the stress of my nightmare. I looked out the window; the wind whistled a very soft and peaceful melody through the tree. The sky was crystal clear. You could hear birds singing happily in perfect harmony. The grass was tall, bright and green. The children were playing hide and seek with cheer and laughter. If you listened closely you could hear the rhythm of the ocean waves moving back and forth in an endless life cycle. The last touch to finish this beautiful scenery was that I could see my mother‘s flower garden, which was full of daisies, roses, jasmines, and orchids .I tried to use this peace and quiet to clear my mind of all negative thoughts. All I could think about was my wonderful summer of opportunity to have fun and hangout with my friends. At least that is what I thought until I found out my mom applied for a job over the summer and I had to stay home to take care of my brothers. In other words, a boring summer of watching television, and writing a fantasy love story soon to become a very famous book and eventually made into a famous movie some day with cute and successful actors like Taylor Lautner to express myself. I know there is more to my life than this. I see myself doing so more to lead a healthy lifestyle. I feel like I have so much potential to help people, be famous, and fight for what I believe is right. Nevertheless, I was happy school was over.

 I always thought there was something missing in my life, but I had no idea what it was. It seemed as if I had everything a person could ever want: a loving family, a home, friends, an education, talent, and potential to help people change the world . Except love, the romantic kind, although I am only sixteen years old, far too young to know about that, but I am curious. The only person who came close to being the one was my best friend Jake who may be more than just a friend. I was always comfortable around him. He was sweet, sensitive, protective, friendly, and supportive. He had green eyes gold curly hair, tall, and muscular. I did not realize how much I had been thinking about him. I had not seen Jake in five years since sent his father to military school at age eleven. I wonder how much he has changed. I decided to write him a letter I still had two hours before school started so I sat on my desk with a pen and started writing. There was so much I wanted to tell him:

Dear Jake,

This is Crystal your best friend.s How are you? How is life? I miss you so much I wish things could go back to the way they were. I have so much to tell you, but I do not where to start. I wish you here with me. it I am so lonely without you by my side. There is something I have to tell you—I think you are the one. I love you, Jake. I hope you feel the same way. I want to see you, Are you coming back soon? I will be waiting for you. Today is the last day of school. There is one more thing, are soul reapers real because I had a nightmare of one chasing me down with a knife to kill me and someone named Danny saved me. Shadow said He will be back with more he will never stop until I am dead.” Jake if you have something to tell me please do not be afraid to tell me. Please, I trust you! Do you trust me?

Write back soon love. Crystal

After I finished my letter, I got dressed for school. I put on my nice white sun dress with yellow, pink, orange, roses in the center It said “ peace love, hope ,live, laugh and play.” It was cotton, so it was comfortable along with it I wore my black stretch pants. I put Jake’s letter in an envelope and hurried to the post office to drop it off. Then I headed for school., I was hoping not to be late on the last day of school, so I did not have breakfast. I decided to stay positive and enjoy the last day of school with my friends as Ms. Anna Maria told me. It was actually really fun my friends and I discussed our summer plans. The class had an ice cream party to celebrate our achievements and this year my graduating friend Cara was graduating. Plus, all my friends took pictures with me. Finally, Ms. Anna Maria gave me a bejeweled scrap book filled with all my favorite memories of junior year. She made it herself .She is a really good artist. In addition, I was happy school was over, I went to my locker to get my books and where I was surprised to find a red rose with a love note that said,” I knew I would find you, it is destiny! We were meant for each other! I am the boy you met in the alley, my name is Danny.” Meet me in the alley after school”. When I got home there was a letter from Jake on the porch, it had a heart on it. 

Chapter 5

The heart desire:

I opened it; my heart was pounding anxiously to hear from him. I read it. 

Dear Crystal,

 I am fine you do not have to worry about me. Are you ok? I miss you; I want to see you. I am coming to visit soon. I love you too, I always have, but I was too afraid to tell you. By the way, soul reapers are real. An army is approaching. My friends and I have been training to fight them for five years. They want to take over the world by using mind control to find out the deepest fears in people’s hearts and then corrupt their souls and turn the human race into the soul reapers’ slaves. Crystal, you are the chosen one, you are the only one who can stop the soul reapers from destroying the world. You have powers of telepathy, mind reading a person’s aura, (energy of the soul). You have the power to control people's emotions, and to see the strength and weaknesses of a bond between people. In addition, Crystal, my dear you have healing abilities. Be careful. Shadow is after you to demolish your powers. I will protect you with my life, do not worry. I will be there soon. Wait for me. I cannot wait to see you. I was the one who saved you that night in the alley and sent you the love note, it was not just a dream, and there is no Danny? Was It a vision of future? I am sorry I did not tell you sooner, I was trying to protect you! With all my heart you are my soul mate Crystal. 

I love you JAKE! HUGS AND KISSES!

I paused amazed at how much he was hiding from me all these years granted, he thought he was protecting me. How am I supposed to save the world? Well I said, “I want adventure in my life here it is!” Then fear of the soul reapers over whelmed my entire body and I was down with my head between my knees, I was shaking vigorously with anxiety, suddenly crying and wishing Jake was here with me. Because I do not know what he looks like?  

Then I decided to the beach to stop feeling sorry for myself. Jake will come when he comes. I am going to listen to Ms. Anna Maria advice and have fun. She was my favorite teacher Mrs. Anne Maria she was always inspiring me to see the possibilities, follow my dreams and work hard to make them come true. Finally, she always told me that “You haveI had to believe in yourmyself, trust yourmy heart, and stand out of the crowd to make a difference in the world in order to be who you want to be in life. “ You must never give up without a fight.” What she said was true. Nevertheless, I was happy school was over. I did not want to wallow in my own self-pity until Jake came for me.

 Then I had an epiphany. Iif Jake was the one who saved me in the alley, . wWhy did he run away from me when I ran to meet him in the alley? I do not know who Danny is? Did he exist? If Jake was the one who saved me in the alley, all along then who was the person who left the love note in my locker?. Maybe I could go to the alley and meet this person and find out the truth once and for all. Maybe Danny did exist, but Jake did not want to tell me because they are mortal enemies. He must have been hiding this from me all this time because he thought if I found out it would create a lot of tension between them and they would fight over me!   

Should I really waste my time trying to find someone that might not even be real? I only have this love note for proof and maybe it was just a random guy at school who likes me, but he was too afraid to admit that he likes me. On the other hand, maybe not after all life is about risks. You have to take hold of an opportunity when you get it because when you do take a chance you might be able to make your dreams come true. If I wait too long and Danny does exist then I will miss my opportunity to meet him and I will regret it. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity. I would not let fear control my life. I decided that I am going him so I put on my shoes and my backpack and ran to the door. It was very sunny. I tried to retrace my step and memories of that night.

I remember that the alley was very long and narrow. It must have been a neighbor and there was a lot of crime because there were many cracks in the wall along with graffiti. I am walking through the alley. This town is known is being mysterious. It was dark and I was scared as I was re-experiencing my memories of that horrible night. The dream is starting to feel like a reality than a fantasy. It was very quiet. I am still walking through the alley when I heard a noise as if there was a fight somewhere nearby and somehow I have a feeling I am going to meet the victim. I leaned against the wall walking to the corner then I turned    

 So I went to the beach after school .I ran so fast out the door, I thought my friend Jake was finally here and he followed me out, to surprise me. When I turned around to see him after five years, I ran to touch him but he vanished. None of it was real Iit was an allusion but, it seemed so real I could see his face was so near. It felt as if Jake was right there in front of me. ,His smile was soft, sweet, and warm his teeth are so white we were so close and he was finally back from the army. Aalthough he was only sixteen, . hHis father forced him into the military fearingin fear that the soul reapers would invade the peaceful town of Ethiopia. Then I felt a cold chill of excitement go down my spine and I was delirious. I could hear Jake saying, . He said” HI Crystal! I miss you I thought about you every day, there is something I need to tell you “. But before he could say anything I grabbed his strong hands and hugged him so tightly and said,”. “I missed you too. “ Then he vanished at my touch, I was so lonely without you I love you”. I surprised myself when I said that I guess I never I realized that I was so passionate about Jake. I knew I missed him we had a very strong bond, but I really love Jake we had done everything together when we were little. The dream and the love note I forgot it was an allusion Danny green eyes were so clear as if they were right in front of me at that instant I looked at Jake. Their eyes were identical, almost the same shade of green may be there was no Danny maybe it was Jake all along, maybe Jake was the one who saved me that night in the alley. Was he the one who wrote the love note? Was Jake my soul mate? Was the message of my dream about love or my destiny? I could not think there were too many thoughts in my head. Suddenly I felt dizzy, my heart was beating so fast I ran as fast as I could to the beach to clear my head ,but before I knew it I was down on my knees crying. Was there a soul reaper following me? 

The beach was peaceful, I watched children playing innocently with their friends. The ocean waves were calm, the sun was shining. Inside, I was frustrated, and I was scared the soul reapers were after me.me, and I did not know what to do. I was always stressing out worrying about life, college, my family and the world. The most ironic aspect of life is that there are no guarantees in life, so I really do not know why I work so hard. I mean I know I have goals and dreams that I want to achieve in life, but so does every other human being on earth so what makes me any different. Oh yeah, I am supposed to save the world and to make it a better place, not questioning it. This is a test I cannot fail even if it is hard, I will not give up. My hard work and goods deeds will pay off                         

     someday when the world is saved. So why does everyone have faith in me,? b But I have no faith in myself? This vacation is almost over and I have not done anything. I need to relax and clear my head. I if what I am laid my beach blanket on the sand I lied down I put my hands behind my `head closed my eyes and started to think about my purpose in life other than religion. What is the point of trying when there are no guarantees in life? I guess if you do not try to reach your goals in life, you will never discover what find out your talent to offer the world is. You will never be able to accomplish your goals and dreams to help make the world a better place to live for future generation to come. I cannot give up just because it seems hard now if I give up on humanity now humanity they will give up on me and the world end up in total darkness because I was too afraid to try. I look up to people not only because of their gifts but the reasons behind them their determination and inspiration, people’s talent can start with small acts of kindness can influence a single person to focus on what is right in the world instead of what is wrong in the world. People need to band together to stop this war, stop killing innocent people, stop being racist and getting more money for charity to help stop poverty. In addition this war doesn’t make any sense every politician said we are in this war over oil and to stop terrorist especially the Taliban but that doesn’t mean at /all people of the Muslim faith are evil and so many innocent people are dying maybe I am still young and naivenaïve and to think that the world can be at peace with no problems of whatsoever we can run on solar power instead of that gasoline to prevent global warming and poverty and people spend more money on food and shelter for the homeless and poor. Then the poor people will become working class citizens less people will be unemployed less foreclosure homes which will make the economy better. I was thinking too much about world problems .I lied down stretching my arms and legs so far, I closed my eyes. “ I needed to clear my head and relax. I was always worrying about other people's problems instead of my own problems. I hate routine but I would have nothing to forward to if there was no routine. Sometimes it gets boring, there areis no sparks. Some people travel or get involved in community organizations to some useful. They have aActives to the past the time. They are always busy and complain that they never have time to relax. I am the opposite, aside from school I do not have any other activities over the summer. I just wish I had something to look forward to, something out of the ordinary that I was not expecting to have like traveling the world, going to summer camp. Why can’t I ever enjoy life just like everyone else without worrying about all the problems I face and everyone I know faces? The beach is so peaceful. The sun is shining which is making the sand very smooth and soft on my skin. I was watching the children playing and making sandcastles on the beach. They were so innocent without a care in the world but I was a teenager who didn’t feel like one because I felt like I was always carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. So, I decided to go for a swim and try to be happy along with everyone else. I ran to the shore only to feel the warm sun shining on me and the cold waves touching my feet as I wandered into the deep ocean that was so beautiful yet dangerous. Then I thought why do people love life so much? What gives them the motivation to move on and keep trying even though it is hard? My dreams and goals seem so far out of my reach even though I graduated from high school this year, I still have a long journey ahead of me. So why does it seem so much easier to just give-up on life instead of having to struggle for everything I do or get in life. As all these thoughts was going through my head I traveled deeper into the ocean. The water was so refreshing, but the waves were rough and high that they pulled me under and I should not keep on fighting. All I could think about was Jake and how he had not come back yet maybe he decided to abandon me. I could not bear the thought of never seeing Jake again.                                                         

“Crystal, awake up! Aare you ok?”. Jake must have caught me in his arms. Then I really blacked out. it must have been two hours before I woke up again. Wwhen I opened my eyes I felt a shock that it scared me I got up so abruptly I almost shot straight up, but my body was still weak with overwhelming thoughts. Aas confused as I was I closed my eyes for one second to try to clear my head none of this made any sense. The next thing that happened was even weirder clearing my head was not a success because all I could see was Jake’s face staring at me. His smile was warm at the same time worried and anxious I opened my eyes again Jake said “I am so happy you are finally awake. Wwhat happen back there? Are you joking you are asking me what happen? Where am I at my house I brought you here for safety after the incident “. Jake said, “Yes! Why you are the one who fainted out of the blue. You had me worried sick about you! “I was surprised Jake really cared about me. Then Jake said “Say something! you Aare you mad at me? What is wrong? Do not tell me nothing. I know very well that is not true now, tell me what’s the matter Crystal please, do you trust me?”  

“Fine I will tell you it was a nightmare I had yesterday. It was about this creepy man who is tall, dark, has red eyes, with a hollow body. He was chasing me down a dark alley with a knife to my neck, and then he knocked me to the floor. I thought I was about to die. Suddenly a bright light shinned through the alley, a boy with green eyes whom I had never seen before saved me from the creature. I found out his name was Danny. The next day when he left me a love note that said he knows he and I were destined to be together forever. I going to meet him after school, but we ran into each other and I was so happy to see you. I forgot to go, oh there is one last thing I have to tell you it’s what the creature said “There is more of them coming very soon “He will never stop until I was dead he will be back for me soon.” “Jake seemed outraged, shocked, but at the same time hurt. I could not explain his expression there were too many emotions on his face. He was completely silent for a while. He did not move a muscle for an hour. I felt really guilty for not telling him as soon I ran into him. Did he think I did not trust him, that I was mad at him? Did he know something I did not and was too afraid to tell me? I could not stand to see him like this it as if he was paralyzed. Jake wake up Jake!    

Jake! I am sorry I should have told you. Then suddenly Jake fell to the floor. I impulsively ran to help him not knowing what to do, so I bent over to cradle my arms around his chest, put my head down on his chest to hear his heartbeat, it was very slow. Was he dying? No, I could not bear the thought of losing him again. I had no idea what was happening, but I was not going to let him die alone. I hugged him so tightly and kissed him and said “I love you Jake please stay with me. I need you! Pplease I love you.” 

Was this the end for us? I heard a loud boom; I went to close the window. I saw a dark hollow figure.” Come with me if you care about Jake.” I am a soul reaper, Crystal; I know who you are and Jake too.” 

I was scared, how did he know about Jake? 

 “I told you I am a soul reaper who knows your deepest darkest fear is losing Jake. My name is Shadow.” “My kind use people's deepest darkest fear to corrupt people's hearts and souls to spread evil across the world.”       

“You will never get away with it. Stay away from us!” I grabbed Jake’s chest to protect him. Stay away!” I felt helpless, but I was not about to give up. There had to be something I could do to help Jake. He was always there for me. I wanted to be there for him and all my friends and family just once instead of them being there for me. I could not let fear ruin my life. Shadow had had a weakness but could it be he was a being powered by darkness and hatred because the world has become so corrupt as a result of war. He is stronger by the second but how could defeat the essence of evil itself. I remember my purpose for living because this incident reminded me of that fateful night about how I was able to create an arrow of light and perch soul with pure heart so why couldn’t I do it now? Wwas something missing? Was it fear?. I need to find Shadow’s weakness before it is too late and Jake dies. I impulsively used my telepathy to transfer my mind into his to find his soul weakness and heart. His mind was dark as a black hole devoid of life or emotions. It was unbearable. I saw my fear of Jake soul under a spell. I will free you. I promise, no matter what. Then everything started shaking and I heard Shadow’s voice, “ Get out you will never save him. You may be pure but you are not bind.” I did not listen. I tried to imagine a way to save him—a light, a doorway, anything that could help us. Suddenly, I saw a star amd started heading towards it, drawn by it’s uncontrollable light and power. Then shadow told me to give up. I was too tired and enraged at him. All I cared about was getting Jake free. I made a sharp arrow and fired it into the abyss that was a shadow heart. You will pay a light perch his entire being. After I saw Jake being squeezed to death I fired two arrows of fire that went to his soul and he yelled .I transferred to my body . Shadow screamed how could you best me again. I hot a beam of light on showdown to finish him off but he got away. I hurried to Jake to see if he was okay.

I healed him

I need to get to the astral house now but I can't think of anything but Jake I healed him but he is not waking up. Allah please let me save him I love him cure him

Chapter 6

Wake up Jake

You are the one who inspired me to be a social worker

Helping others through social work is one of my main goals and passions in life because I have always wanted to advocate for people. I have cerebral palsy, which has made me realize how important it is to convey your own ideas and messages in a positive manner to the world. I discovered I wanted to be a social worker when I was fifteen. I used my voice to advocate and resolve a family fight between my aunt and uncle that had lasted two hours. Although I could not physically intervene and resolve the issue, I acted as a moderator and was able to use my voice to convince them to listen to and see each other’s perspectives. I realized that I was never going to stand idly by and do nothing when people are in trouble. This experience taught me that I have the power to advocate for myself and others. This was a realization for me because when I learned to advocate for myself, I was able to say what I needed without worrying about whether others would advocate for what I truly needed. I want to be able to teach my clients about this very important skill that has changed my life.

 My physical disability provides me with a unique sense of empathy for those who are disabled as well as any individual seeking to discover the power of their own voice. I want to help each of my clients use their voice as a tool to enable them to communicate their messages and experiences peacefully, so that they make people aware of their problems. People must never be afraid to stand up for what they believe in and ensure that their powerful voices are heard. Even if people have no other resources available to them, each person has a voice. It is your most valuable resource because no one can ever take it away from you. As a social worker, I will encourage my clients to utilize their voices by helping them use their passions to create different outlets that help them become comfortable sharing their unique experiences with other people. 

  My passion for writing also contributes to my interest in social work. I enjoy writing because it helps me express myself and alleviate my frustrations. Writing has had a huge influence on my life. It taught me valuable skills, including patience, authenticity, dedication, and confidence. It strengthens my ability to advocate for people and share my experiences, knowledge, and feelings with people. This began when I created a beautiful heartfelt blog called the Shining Star where I write posts on many different topics. Writing makes me happy and a better person and advocate. My blog allows me to use my voice to advocate, inform, and educate my readers to help influence them to make a positive change. My voice is reaching a big audience, people from all over the world, including the United States all way to Poland India, Egypt ,Saudi Arabia, France, Kuwait and the Philippines . I use my blog to advocate for people by educating and informing my audience on many different topics that are important to me such as educational inequality, gender roles, media, representation, Syrian refugees, and Egypt. My blog allows me to advocate for myself and use my knowledge to influence my readers from all over the world. Writing has enabled me to observe the world and its tendencies. Through writing, I can advocate for myself and others by creating a blog where I can freely share my knowledge and experience. As a social worker, I will work with my clients to help them find their voices and different outlets to express themselves while I teaching them how to advocate independently so they become as comfortable sharing their unique experiences with other people as I am I with writing. 

Sometimes not being able to help people physically can be very challenging; however, I am very good at being empathetic and offering emotional support. When my father was diagnosed with cancer, I could not do anything for him physically, but I sat home with him every day keeping him company; we watched basketball together, I talked to him, helped him with phone calls, and listened to him tell me stories. I encouraged him with positive words such as be strong and “I love you”. This experience made me realize that I want my future career to involve this individual care for people. As a counselor, I want to make people comfortable in their own skin, allowing them to use their voice to convey their messages and experiences. As a counselor I will provide my patients with emotional support by listening to their stories and having them take initiative to develop self-advocacy by leading discussions. The most important types of emotional support are patience and a positive attitude. I will be there for my clients and provide them with hope and confidence in their stories, talents, and abilities, allowing them to develop self-advocacy skills and become productive members of society. My father taught me how powerful emotional support truly is, and providing emotional support to my patients will be more important than physical support.

As a counselor, I can create an environment where people are not afraid to talk about religion or social problems. I plan to have open discussions with my clients, by asking open-ended questions such as “Why do you think you are here today?” and “What makes you unique?”. These conversations can help me break the ice and build a strong rapport with clients. A therapist’s work cannot begin until a comfortable relationship with a client is established; a strong connection with clients is the foundation for therapy. I want to give individuals the opportunity to express what is going on without subjecting them to double-blinded questions, in which however they answer, they are somehow wrong. Rather than put a negative connotation to their answer, I want to hear them out and allow them to express themselves more freely. As a therapist, I will teach my patients how to take advantage of their own abilities. As a result, my clients will learn to accept their differences and embrace their unique identities and talents, because no one should ever be ashamed of who they are. No matter what life throws at you, people can always achieve their dreams and goals. In order to progress as a society, we must cast away this false idea of what “normal” is. 

My internship at Abilities allowed me to focus on this issue and make a difference. During this time, I worked in business communications and helped students with their resumes and cover letters. I was able to advocate for the students and highlight the qualities that made them stand out as individuals. This internship helped me realize that I want to become a therapist to help people with their problems, along with becoming an activist who speaks up for people who feel like they do not have a voice. I am aware that there is a stigma against attending therapy, so I want to create an environment where people feel safe and comfortable to fully express themselves. I hope to make people comfortable talking about a variety of topics so we can alleviate their frustrations together. Even if people do not want to talk about their problems, I will listen to their frustrations as a friend if they just need someone to talk to.

My last semester at Hofstra, I had to write a research project for the semester in my sociology class. I wrote about Islamophiobia and Syrian refugees. I became engrossed in the research. It touched my heart to point where my research was not just for school anymore. This research really opened my eyes to the struggles of Syrian refugees. During this semester, I discovered my passion for Syrian refugees. I become so attached and concerned about the wellbeing of Syrian refugees that I knew I must advocate for them to help end this serious humanitarian crisis.. I have continued to research the refugee crisis and how Islamophobia is strong barrier faced by innocent refugees. There is absolutely no reason for Americans to be afraid of Muslims who practice a peaceful religion in society. My research has inspired me to advocate for Syrian refugees as well as any group of people who cannot fight for themselves and help individuals discover their inner power and amplify their voices, and experiences to the world. One of my major goals is to provide Syrian refugees with a platform to speak out about their personal experiences. I realize that I cannot stop all conflict, but at least as a counselor, I can use my voice to help people gain their voices and provide them the skills to advocate for themselves. My research on Syria refugees makes me want to advocate for them and become an ambassador for the United Nations idealistically. I want to help people and my extensive research on Syrian refugees makes me realize that I want to take action. Not only do I want to become a therapist to help people with their problems, but I also want to become an activist to advocate for people who feel like they are powerless. This advocating is not limited to people with disabilities, but all people who need a voice because society has muffled their sound with unfounded discrimination.  

I am eager to join the yeshiva University School of Social Work. I believe the social work program can teach me the skills necessary to become a therapist who allows people to understand themselves so that they can reach their full potential and influence others to do the same. I love writing so I also look forward to my research papers and my field ,placement. Hunter’s School of Social Work offers students the option to choose a specialization in a field of practice (FOP). My concentration will be Global Social Work and Practice with Immigrants and Refugees reform and youth services. I want to work in a diverse community that is passionate about helping people. At yeshiva School of Social Work, I would like to become a counselor and make a difference in the world. I believe I can enable my future clients to be confident in their own respective identities, by using my own situation of having cerebral palsy as an example of how, regardless of your situation, it is possible to find your voice. By becoming a counselor I can make a difference in the world; by turning my individual problem into solutions that can create a path of advocacy for people who do not have a voice in society. I plan to create an environment that does not instill fear or any negative emotions in my clients because I want to allow people to have a space to talk freely without any judgment. As a therapist, I will teach my patients how to take advantage of their own abilities. As a result, my clients will learn to accept their own differences and embrace their unique identities and talents and thus embrace themselves. 

You touched on some beautiful things regarding relationships of all sorts including with Allah, family, friends, and significant other/soulmate insha Allah. I agree that these relationships can promote love and success for this life and the next insha Allah. I believe divorce is high because people don’t understand how to apologize and have to much pride. We all make mistakes and have to understand that we need to communicate and apologize when we make mistakes. Take some time to reflect and come together in peace with mercy. Not too many have this perspective about marriage. If we base our lives around Islam and strengthen our connection with Allah, we understand and have faith He will assist us through out challenges and to find our soulmates insha Allah. I agree intimacy is important, but subhan Allah it is a religious aspect of marriage, but not a central aspect. Building a life based on compassion and mercy is what is most important. We all have our challenges that Allah has given us, so insha Allah our spouses will be a source of calm and not stress. 

I really love you’re perspective masha Allah. In terms of patience, I’m not perfect, but I have come a long way alhamdulillah. I think each day is an opportunity to improve by understanding Allah, ourselves, and taking the time to reflect, pray, make dua, and learn from our elders and people with experience insha Allah. 

As far as family accepting us for who we are and vice versa, unfortunately, it’s not always possible. I do my best, and I try to give family the benefit of the doubt. I keep in touch, but I live far from family, so we don’t have the chance to see each other.ou touched on some beautiful things regarding relationships of all sorts including with Allah, family, friends, and significant other/soulmate insha Allah. I agree that these relationships can promote love and success for this life and the next insha Allah. I believe divorce is high because people don’t understand how to apologize and have to much pride. We all make mistakes and have to understand that we need to communicate and apologize when we make mistakes. Take some time to reflect and come together in peace with mercy. Not too many have this perspective about marriage. If we base our lives around Islam and strengthen our connection with Allah, we understand and have faith He will assist us through out challenges and to find our soulmates insha Allah. I agree intimacy is important, but subhan Allah it is a religious aspect of marriage, but not a central aspect. Building a life based on compassion and mercy is what is most important. We all have our challenges that Allah has given us, so insha Allah our spouses will be a source of calm and not stress. 

I really love you’re perspective masha Allah. In terms of patience, I’m not perfect, but I have come a long way alhamdulillah. I think each day is an opportunity to improve by understanding Allah, ourselves, and taking the time to reflect, pray, make dua, and learn from our elders and people with experience insha Allah. 

As far as family accepting us for who we are and vice versa, unfortunately, it’s not always possible. I do my best, and I try to give family the benefit of the doubt. I keep in touch, but I live far from family, so we don’t have the chance to see each other.